hi im geoff and im 13 years old. last year weird stuff started happening. i became increasingly anxious about minor things. like for example every time i would hear something about a new disease i would started to panic and freak out thinking that i have it when i obviously didn't. then i heard that song by macklamore that said "when i was in the third grade i thought i was gay." and that same day i watched a video of a rap battle between a girl and a boy and the girl made fun of him about how he told her that he thought he was gay when he was little. then i started to wonder should i be thinking this? now i worry about it everyday. i've tested my self by watching gay porn but it's just disgusting and i dont get erections. after i dont get a ***** i feel calm for a while. but then my mind tells me that i just forcing myself not to get an erection. sometimes it might get a little longer but i never get a true *****. it usually accompanied by the feeling of having to urinate. like just now i was doing my homework on the computer and i had a gay thought. i felt like i was gonna get a ***** but it was just like long but soft. i got up and realized that i was dripping with sweat from my pant leg. masturbtion about girls is now hassle with all the imagery floating around in my. i suspect i suffer from ocd. please help me.