if you have loads of mental illnesses and you are never ever happy are you truly better off dead?

Question

I have severe depression, anxiety disorder, explosive anger disorder, panic disorder and borderline personality disorder. Every day is a painful battle, and every day I ask myself if I would be better off dead. I am never happy, I push my family away when they try to help and I don't know why, I cry myself to sleep every night and the only thing I really want is to be happy so I sometimes take drugs to help, but that is obviously not real happiness. I do not sleep at night because there dark scares me and I hear and see things other people don't. I feel completely alone and like no one really cares and I do not value my life at all. Is there any way out without death?

Answer 1

There's no way out... unless you change your surroundings.. My diagnosis is not as hectic as yours.. however I do feel similar.. We just dont have enough people around us that feel this way. We have no-one who truly gets it.. And the people who do are out of our reach!



Im sorry u feel this sh*t!

Answer 2

No one is 'better off dead'. That's a stupid thing to say, if you're scared of the dark turn on a tv when you sleep so you can't hear other noises outside or in the house. But what you really need is a distraction. Something to take you away from everything. Try hiking, or something that makes you feel free.



Death is never the way of choice, death by choice is a pathetic end to a great life.

Answer 3

What exactly is true happiness? That isn't something for you to decide. It isn't something for anyone to decide. Just because the happiness is induced by drugs, that does not mean that it's true happiness. I mean, your brain is just a system that produces different ratio's of chemicals that correlate with different emotions. If something is broken then there is no problem fixing it right? Saying that your happiness is not true happiness just because is dependent on a drug is like saying a car is not a true car because it keeps on braking down. Sure it brings plenty of pointless stress into your life, but you hope that one day after bring it to the workshop so many times your car will be fit enough to run well enough on its own, without breaking down.



The same is with your happiness.



Hopefully one day you'll be able to achieve it without the help of drugs. For now though, that it is enough with just being able to feel it. After all, what makes you different from normal plain old druggies is your desire for growth. There is not problem taking prescription drugs if you want to change, it only becomes a problem if you are taking prescription drugs just to get that high feeling.

Answer 4

Ok dude, for starters, I haven't got any diagnosed mental illnesses but I have been going through a hard time. Recently I did my GCSE exams, the whole build up towards it was daunting. I hated my life and to be honest, I still do. I stopped eating, started to do unthinkable things on my arms and body. I pushed away my family and on top of that, I have to deal with my girlfriend who self harms, doesn't sleep and struggles constantly with life. I've pushed away my family, drawn into myself.



Fact is, and you've got to believe me with this: you're never alone. You may think you're alone but you are not. I'm struggling to keep myself happy and my girlfriend alive and it's crushing me. Don't believe for a second you're better off dead because hey, you're still alive. You've persisted so far, persist more.



You're never alone

Answer 5

There is always a way to be happy then death. For example; try to be more outgoing. Go outside, smell the fresh air, and exercise/hang out with friends! Both of those activities do boost your happiness levels and burn some calories. Or, you can get a MD doctor/therapist. Ask your parents about the two. Stop the drugs! Those drugs make you hallucinate and make you stay up way more than usual. So, hide those drugs away and be you.

Answer 6

You need to be taking your meds regularly. If you had diabetes, you wouldn't take insulin "sometimes".



Drugs even out your brain so you can feel happiness. Take a long walk everyday. Getting out is good and you'll sleep much better.



Also get a good therapist to talk it out.



You arent going to die, so put some real effort into living for 3 months and see if it gets better.



Avoid all sugar and soda. Those make your condition worse. put ENERGY into eating correctly.



Everyone fights for happiness. You're not alone.

Answer 7

You are under constant oppression of a negative influence. Demons. Evil spirits. Go to a good bible believing church and talk to the pastor. Let him and others pray for you.