Is there something seriously wrong with me or what?

Question

I'm fairly sure I have schizoid personality disorder since I don't express emotion (or feel very much at all), have no desire for human relationships, not even physical ones, and generally don't talk. However I also have weirder symptoms. One of the most striking 'symptoms' is that I have a lot of different phobias of things that don't make sense, and usually these phobias develop extremely quickly and come and go without warning. And by 'things that don't make sense', I mean they're literally things that nobody has any reason whatsoever to be afraid of like, my own hands and balloon animals and even coffee grinds.

Another thing is what I call disordered perception but that's probably not the right word for it. It's like I look at things that I've looked at all my life (like hands) and they just don't seem right. I feel like an alien looking at a planet I've never been to. I feel like I have to re-learn how to look at things like they're normal and supposed to be there.

I've also been experiencing rapid mood swings lately, leaning more towards irritation/anger and self-deprecation, though I'm usually good at keeping things like that in check.

It's probably nothing and it only just started bleeding into my schoolwork and personal relationships, and I'm afraid it might turn into one of those 'breaking the dam' things. My mom won't send me to a psychiatrist because she's convinced that we live in a perfect world where you can fix broken arms with bandaids and concussions with ibuprofen, so there's pretty much no chance of that happening.

Anyway, sorry if this is long. I'm not even sure what I'm looking for. Thanks for reading/answering, if you do either of those.

Answer 1

If your mother is unwilling to take you to a psychiatrist, then I would talk to your school counselor. She might be able to examine you and determine if you do have an actual disorder, or if there is something else going on. Sometimes stressors in our life make us act out in ways that imitate certain disorders.



The rapid and irrational phobias do seem to indicate a disorder, but again, your school counselor might be able to determine that more clearly.



As for the "disordered perception", I would say that is just being caused by some stresses in your life. There have been times in my life where I would be going through the same routine as always, and just be overcome by the feeling that I didn't belong, I was a stranger in a strange land, and nothing was making sense. I have learned (through talking with a counselor) that the best way to deal with that is writing it out either through journaling or poetry, or through whatever media you like best. Bottling up the emotions magnifies it and makes it seem more severe than it really is, much like your rapid mood swings. For a while this past year, I was in such rapid flux that I couldn't predict how things would go or how I would feel in ten minutes.



While I will not speak ill of your mother, I do empathize with you in that some people do not like thinking that people do have real problems. Sometimes they are those that we need to listen to us the most. But there are ways around it, like your school counselor, a sympathetic teacher, or a really good friend.



Overall, I would say that you do not have an actual disorder, more like things are so stressful you are processing and coping in ways that reflect schizophrenia. I would suggest maybe picking up some St. John's Wort from your local grocer and start taking that. It promotes positive mental behavior and it has helped me before. But again, I am just a psychology student; I am not certified to properly identify disorders or make prescriptions. Go to your school counselor for that. I am just a friend trying to give some friendly advice.

Answer 2

By societies standards, you should really see a professional. Just the whole "discorded perception"...wow. You sound highly intelligent, maybe you are just too intelligent for this world, or just really damn creative, or HEY maybe just crazy. Only a Dr. can tell you what you are for sure, or so they say. Just the tone of your question (as I read it) says that you already know something is wrong, so you should try harder to make your mom wake up and smell the scary coffee grounds, this is the real world we live in! There is nothing wrong with seeking "help", if anything I believe it would help you sort things out a littler better. Much luck.

Answer 3

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Answer 4

Look, you have Schizophrenia. Yes there is something wrong with you, but listen, there is something wrong with everyone, even me. I have Bipolar and Anxiety. No one in this world isnt right. We are all arent normal either.

Answer 5

2 be honest i think u've a big problem n the only solution is 2 go 2 a phychiatrist who can better understand wat u've!try 2 talk n explain ur mom abt ur problem n convince her or make some1 else talk 2 her...u'r still in time,go 2 doc b4 ur problem get worst...gud luck..