2010-08-28 01:00:00 UTC
when i turned 3 something happened and i started fearing the lizard.my family thought it was normal and so they never really bothered about it,i thought it would decrease by the time i grow up but it didn't.
i moved into a new house this month,and the previous house - i was there for 11 months and there were almost no lizards.
and this house has plenty! its just last night that i wanted to go to the washroom,and outside my room there was one.i called my mom and she got really angry,once the maid shoo-ed the lizard away i went and came back.and silently cried in my room.i went to bed just after crying & had REAL bad lizard nightmares.So bad that after around 6 hours of sleep i woke up and watched tv for half hour,so that i could get my mind off those nightmares.
here's what happens to me when i SEE a lizard : my face goes expression less,i become breathless or sometimes i breath a little too fast/much (my heart thumps..its thumping now too cause im partly thinking about that thing) thoughts of death run through my mind & my heart beat increases rapidly.
strange but i don't fear anything else in the world,nt cockroaches/spiders/rats/dogs/heights/fire/darkness.NOTHING at all,but just a tiny harmless lizard can make me faint.
Oh yeah and sometimes i even start crying if i see a lizard too closely.
Both my parents are doctors and they think my fear is "stupid", "irritating" & "unnecessary" .How do i tell them that i really need help and i'm not ashamed to admit that.
I'd like to visit a psychiatrist or something.
But till the time i can actually do so,any help here?
I think this fear is taking over my life now.
Xoxo