My pain sometimes is just my own, other times it is the pain of others that I have drank in, trying to provide some comfort. Very few strangers can hurt me. When they strike my friends and family- and I am there to witness, they had better look out. But somehow I can not strike back at those who would hurt me, no satisfaction is felt in hurting them, I ache to see others in pain, even the ones who with callous disregard inflicted pain upon my person.
Who loves me more? Well I think the confident response is "I love myself the most." And though I have some surety in my worth, I know, know it is not me who loves me best.
It is the one person in this life who goes out of his way to treat me tenderly, to never ever for one minute say a hurtful thing- even in defense of himself. He aches for me, as I have ached for others, and when I come "home" battle scarred and bleeding, it is he who tends my wounds with angelic care. So tender so sweet so nurturing and yet fiery, intense and blissfully burning electric.
Ah and of course there are dear souls scattered over this planet who have love in their heart for me and I for them.
I got a morning hug from a dear dear friend who shares my coast, and a mid-afternoon kiss on the cheek with a tight squeeze from a beautiful Luna in the southern hemisphere.
They and He, save me from the "little black spots on the sun today" and everyday.