A girl in my year died one year ago in my year. i cant move on?

Question

She commited suicide. She was an occomplished athlete with medals, musician, singer, incredible school marks. Her atar arrived after her death 94 is what she got. She was very good looking with a large amount of friends. Her family loved her. Then she jumped infront of a train. She was so accomplished, and had so much to offer in the world
I have depression anxiety and temperal lobe epilepsy, i dont blackout and it is excrutiating. Every day is a struggle, i with drew from friends, was obviously in a bad place. I spent most of my lunch breaks and class time with counsellor. I have been placed in psychiatric care 9 times to protect,me from suicidality. I often wish i was dead. Im still here.

I dont know why she did it, what happened. Im so sad for her. I just dont get it. And i cant move of. I need opinions on why she did it and how to move on. She was my aquantence, i knew her and we were friendly, but nothing huge to do with eachother

Answer 1

Wow, it is always sad to hear stories like this and the only advice that I can give you is to pray. If you have a relationship with God, He will give you the strength to get through tough times like you are experiencing. My condolences go out to you and I hope that all will be well. I hope that you can find the joy that God promised to His children. Please know that no matter what happens to you in your life, if you love God, it works for your good. I cannot tell you why she committed suicide, but I do know that she probably left a lot of people mourning for her, which MIGHT have been a bit selfish on her part. ( I do not know her story, and I know that life is hard and I am not judging her but I think suicide is a sin.) Anyways, I know that it is hard to lose a loved one but the love of God will give you the strength to move on with your life. Maybe you can help people who are suicidal or depressed!! At any rate, find the good in the situation. Now that you have experienced this, you have a way to help others who are in the same situation. God bless you!!

Answer 2

That's one of the worst parts of suicide, everyone is left wondering why, why someone who is doing well decides to end their life. Most of the time we never know why they do, but all we can do is accept that thatwWS there choice, and move on, it won't be easy, itnever is, but we must try, because if we don't then we will surly share the same fate, putting the same feelings on another person that cares for you

Answer 3

depressions sucks, literally, it sucks you down and tries to keep you there. i'm sure you know this feeling, having had depression and anxiety yourself. :(

i think when people commit suicide it's because they've lost all hope. the depression has kept them down for too long and they can't cope. it's terrible and it's horribly sad, and it makes me sad to think about it. they see no future for themselves, and they lose the will to live. but because they don't see it doesn't mean it's not there!! everyone has a reason to live and a reason to be happy, but depression can tear us down and make us forget.

in the midst of the awards and accomplishments, something was missing. you say this girl was pretty and had many friends. these are just superficial details, though. on the surface she had things that make a person happy, but we couldn't see what was underneath. what caused her depression could be a number of things. what has caused yours? for me personally, i've felt depression in times of stress. when i'm stressed i make things harder than they are, and i judge myself too harshly when i fail. it makes me feel like i'm not good enough. that's just me. we'll probably never know exactly what caused your classmate to take her life. but know that she didn't have to. remember that everyone has a reason to live, and that depression is not a life sentence! depression can be cured. your classmate fell into a place too dark and forgot this. :(

we can only hope that she's in a better place now. it's hard to move on, but you'll find your peace. don't forget your classmate. keep her in your memories and remember her fondly. :)